This is bout my first GD, which happened like, a week ago. It wasn't a real GD, just a mock one, to give us freshers a taste of what GDs really are about. But that isn't the important thing here; the imp thing is that I didn't speak a word through the entire thing, except for when the judges asked me to conclude and thus forced me to open my mouth! I've been back to that moment so many times eversince, but I just can't understand what happened to me then. I have spoken before, in the very same college, and that too, all alone!! and to a bigger crowd! I knew the stuff to say and knew it'd be better than what anyone else had been sayin. It was as if I had just lost my voice!! I actually find that scene funny when I think bout it: I talk absolute nonsense, non-stop, and drive everyone nuts; but when I was asked to talk, I completely shut up!!

Hey there! I'm Trisha, or Trish if you like that better! I'm 18 and currently a freshie at NIT Calicut. Yeah I am gonna be an engineer and I guess this is the right way for me, because I've always been curious about how things work and now I'm really learning some of it. Yet I realise now, I know so little of this world. Everyone else I've been around seems to know so much more now, and they never pointed this out to me, they'd always say it was ok. But now that I'm livin all alone finally, I realise I should have known a lil more to survive this! I know, I'd have been different then, maybe not the way I am right now, but I guess they'd still like me, and it'd be a lil easier me here. Hell I feel so lost! And I realise this is just the beginning, from now on its just gonna be me and my life and what I can do with it. And I feel scared, oh yeah I do! I've always hated changes, and I can't believe this is really happenin! It feels so weird to realise that its never ever again gonna be like its always been, no matter what, its over, its gone! And it does feel like it did all go by in jus 60 seconds, without any warnings, just all gone!!