For the last time I walked out of the college gates, walked to Kattangal and took a bus to the city. 
It doesn't feel like I haven't been here for the last few months, everything feels like its always been this way and that it's always going to be this way. Can't imagine I'm never coming back here and never seeing the NITC Class of 2011 again together at one place like this again. It felt so 'like always' to see everyone again, sitting in the auditorium in alphabetical order-which meant with my 'forever' lab partners, it felt like maybe some things will never change, when the truth is, it is never going to be this way again.
I can't say I feel sad it's ending now, cuz it just doesn't feel that way yet. 
I hope it's true, that we keep running into each other.
Lastly, since the last time I walked outta those gates, I've made a complete mess of my life and proved my stupidity to the world. This time, I hope I walk out into the world a stronger and wiser girl, and that the world is a bit easier on me than it was the last time ;)

7:30 am
On the way back to college for our graduation ceremony.
It's been quite an interesting journey so far, from Bangalore by bus. There are four others from my college on the same bus and I've been slipping off my seat all night because the roads are winding like crazy! (I'm not even sure if that's a correct English sentence but that's the only way to explain it exactly!)
Haven't been able to sleep for the major share of the night, but since the sun came out, I'm just loving being back here. The roads feel so familiar and the weather is really awesome since it's still early morning.
Somewhere between Kapad and Calicut right now, and so excited to be back! :)

Yesterday was the last working day at college, atleast for my class.
And it was followed by the director's farewell to our batch in the evening.

July 23, 2007 - all of us had assembled in that very auditorium for the first time (and sadly, I guess that was the only time the whole batch was ever together under one damned roof) for our orientation ceremony.
We didn't know each other and neither did we know ourselves quite so well then.
We had no idea what was coming, yet we were all inspired and excited; inspired by our own success (at having reached here) and excited about what was to come (for they said, this college was one of the best, and they said once we got here, our futures were set and secured - oh yeah, that's what they used to say).

I had already been on campus for 5 days by then; had been locked up in LH ever since my mom had left; and had already had had my first brushes with what was to come atleast in the immediate future. The only mess open during that duration had already served us boiled bananas, appam and stew by then. Some seniors had landed up earlier than they should have and had already started on what they proudly considered their duty! So on 23rd morning, we were lined up at the hostel gates, all dressed up in our 'funde', heads bowed low....

Well, after two years of hell (high school) and getting into NIT - 'C', I had thought I could finally look up and around, and take a deep breath. And here we were..

Honestly, at that moment, it felt like hell all over again.

Well, I coudn't imagine then how that could possibly happen in this place.


April 12, 2011 - few gathered in the same auditorium. But only a few.
I don't blame the ones who didn't turn up; I myself don't know why I went, I knew most wouldn't turn up anyway; but since I could never forget those lines, I just wanted to go there to, I guess, see things through till the end of it!

So there we were yesterday, a 'few' of us.

This time, we had some friends around us, and some faces.
We have little idea on what's coming, we're not so inspired anymore I think, but excited, yes we are!!

The last four years have been incredible and unbelievable.
I have watched the transformations myself - from high school grads to college grads, but more important than the degree, we've all grown really fast in these last 4 years compared to the 18 yrs before we got here.
How this college can change lives doesn't need my imagination anymore...

All right we're getting to the end of it now. I know I have kept away from this blog for major part of the year - basically I've been very aloof to almost everything. I dunno what this is, just a phase or something more permanent but lazy is not the word I would use to describe what I have been.

And now with a farewell something almost everyday, I realized I have been so oblivious to everything for the last few months. Since I barely felt anything I've had no confessions to make on this blog.
And then today I realized all this is going to end soon, soon no matter what, I wont be @NITC to pen down Confessions@NITC!!! And now I wish I had come back to this space more often this past year. The blog's so empty...
And yet, I still don't feel a thing.

Walking to college this morning, I had just stepped outside the LH gates, when it hit me...

Stepping outside the LH gates is an amazing feeling, to me at least.
LH is jail, no matter how many amazing friends I've made in here, coming back to LH after even some of the best days ever of my life ruins my mood. So you can only imagine what a thrilling feeling it must be to step outside those gates, every time!!
The other thing I love about 'outside the LH gate' is that after stepping out, you gotta walk uphill 'round a not so gentle curve (in fact in the beginning of first year, I'd be tired by the time I was past this!!) and the whole time you'll be walking through this what I find really pretty canopy of greenery. And after that, especially around this time of the year, the space on either side of the road is completely overgrown with flowers - pretty, wild and all over the place! This also happens to be the only thing I like about walking back to LH ;)

So what hit me was that it really is gonna be over soon! And the only thing I actually regretted right at that moment was about missing out on the greenery!

And then on the Rajpath, there were the dry leaves strewn all over the place and I realized this was it - our last autumn here!! I've written so much about autumn on Rajpath on this very blog, and yes, I will so miss the sight of the Rajpath going red in this crazy crazy heat!!

Oh my God I have waited for college to get over forever, and now that it is happening, I can't believe I'm actually having these kinda thoughts!!
It's just that there's been such an unbelievable amount of so much squeezed into these last four years, I wish it was possible to save every little moment in a time capsule!!