For the last time I walked out of the college gates, walked to Kattangal and took a bus to the city. 
It doesn't feel like I haven't been here for the last few months, everything feels like its always been this way and that it's always going to be this way. Can't imagine I'm never coming back here and never seeing the NITC Class of 2011 again together at one place like this again. It felt so 'like always' to see everyone again, sitting in the auditorium in alphabetical order-which meant with my 'forever' lab partners, it felt like maybe some things will never change, when the truth is, it is never going to be this way again.
I can't say I feel sad it's ending now, cuz it just doesn't feel that way yet. 
I hope it's true, that we keep running into each other.
Lastly, since the last time I walked outta those gates, I've made a complete mess of my life and proved my stupidity to the world. This time, I hope I walk out into the world a stronger and wiser girl, and that the world is a bit easier on me than it was the last time ;)

7:30 am
On the way back to college for our graduation ceremony.
It's been quite an interesting journey so far, from Bangalore by bus. There are four others from my college on the same bus and I've been slipping off my seat all night because the roads are winding like crazy! (I'm not even sure if that's a correct English sentence but that's the only way to explain it exactly!)
Haven't been able to sleep for the major share of the night, but since the sun came out, I'm just loving being back here. The roads feel so familiar and the weather is really awesome since it's still early morning.
Somewhere between Kapad and Calicut right now, and so excited to be back! :)

Yesterday was the last working day at college, atleast for my class.
And it was followed by the director's farewell to our batch in the evening.

July 23, 2007 - all of us had assembled in that very auditorium for the first time (and sadly, I guess that was the only time the whole batch was ever together under one damned roof) for our orientation ceremony.
We didn't know each other and neither did we know ourselves quite so well then.
We had no idea what was coming, yet we were all inspired and excited; inspired by our own success (at having reached here) and excited about what was to come (for they said, this college was one of the best, and they said once we got here, our futures were set and secured - oh yeah, that's what they used to say).

I had already been on campus for 5 days by then; had been locked up in LH ever since my mom had left; and had already had had my first brushes with what was to come atleast in the immediate future. The only mess open during that duration had already served us boiled bananas, appam and stew by then. Some seniors had landed up earlier than they should have and had already started on what they proudly considered their duty! So on 23rd morning, we were lined up at the hostel gates, all dressed up in our 'funde', heads bowed low....

Well, after two years of hell (high school) and getting into NIT - 'C', I had thought I could finally look up and around, and take a deep breath. And here we were..

Honestly, at that moment, it felt like hell all over again.

Well, I coudn't imagine then how that could possibly happen in this place.


April 12, 2011 - few gathered in the same auditorium. But only a few.
I don't blame the ones who didn't turn up; I myself don't know why I went, I knew most wouldn't turn up anyway; but since I could never forget those lines, I just wanted to go there to, I guess, see things through till the end of it!

So there we were yesterday, a 'few' of us.

This time, we had some friends around us, and some faces.
We have little idea on what's coming, we're not so inspired anymore I think, but excited, yes we are!!

The last four years have been incredible and unbelievable.
I have watched the transformations myself - from high school grads to college grads, but more important than the degree, we've all grown really fast in these last 4 years compared to the 18 yrs before we got here.
How this college can change lives doesn't need my imagination anymore...

All right we're getting to the end of it now. I know I have kept away from this blog for major part of the year - basically I've been very aloof to almost everything. I dunno what this is, just a phase or something more permanent but lazy is not the word I would use to describe what I have been.

And now with a farewell something almost everyday, I realized I have been so oblivious to everything for the last few months. Since I barely felt anything I've had no confessions to make on this blog.
And then today I realized all this is going to end soon, soon no matter what, I wont be @NITC to pen down Confessions@NITC!!! And now I wish I had come back to this space more often this past year. The blog's so empty...
And yet, I still don't feel a thing.

Walking to college this morning, I had just stepped outside the LH gates, when it hit me...

Stepping outside the LH gates is an amazing feeling, to me at least.
LH is jail, no matter how many amazing friends I've made in here, coming back to LH after even some of the best days ever of my life ruins my mood. So you can only imagine what a thrilling feeling it must be to step outside those gates, every time!!
The other thing I love about 'outside the LH gate' is that after stepping out, you gotta walk uphill 'round a not so gentle curve (in fact in the beginning of first year, I'd be tired by the time I was past this!!) and the whole time you'll be walking through this what I find really pretty canopy of greenery. And after that, especially around this time of the year, the space on either side of the road is completely overgrown with flowers - pretty, wild and all over the place! This also happens to be the only thing I like about walking back to LH ;)

So what hit me was that it really is gonna be over soon! And the only thing I actually regretted right at that moment was about missing out on the greenery!

And then on the Rajpath, there were the dry leaves strewn all over the place and I realized this was it - our last autumn here!! I've written so much about autumn on Rajpath on this very blog, and yes, I will so miss the sight of the Rajpath going red in this crazy crazy heat!!

Oh my God I have waited for college to get over forever, and now that it is happening, I can't believe I'm actually having these kinda thoughts!!
It's just that there's been such an unbelievable amount of so much squeezed into these last four years, I wish it was possible to save every little moment in a time capsule!!

Haven't written in ages, ages I know. I haven't been feeling like writing lately, and now I think I know why.
I started off writing about my feelings and experiences at college, but somewhere along the way, it kinda turned into some special events journal. And then after three years, the special events didn't really appear special anymore.
And then I realized what happened...

So here I am, a few hours away from my major project stage 1 evaluation., and I'm gonna speak exactly what's on my mind...

S7 is kind of over, except for the final showdown tomorrow. The campus is empty like a Sunday afternoon. Five more months of college to go.

I know next to nothing about my major project.  Thank God I got placed before this whole fiasco started!
Ummm I don't really have anything to talk about, nor am I in the mood to make small talk. I'm very irritated, tired and sleep deprived. All I wanna do is somehow make it past noon, tomorrow and then, two weeks of..my last vacation??
Whoa!! That's kinda my only disappointment about starting to work - no more summer breaks, term breaks etc.
And I'm supposed to be working on giving our presentation for tomorrow it's final touches but I so do not feel like it! And I guess to avoid that, I turned to the thing I've been avoiding for quite some time now - writing a post!
Damn I have heardly written at all this semester. It was a pretty boring semester for me, apart from the two week break in-between, but what followed after coming back to college took away whatever little joy we'd managed in those two weeks. Apart from that, there were all the usual events of monsoon semester, for the last time for me.
Starting with Onam -I'm gonna miss the payasam, that's it :P
Then Ganesh chaturathi, lol I'll miss getting the best dress awards at college dance nights I guess ;)
And diwali - college brought a whole new meaning of 'diwali' to me. Each year's been special; in fact, the last year was the least, with all our seniors gone.
Tathva was an unexpected surprise. We had a fire-show, live in our college by a group from the Czech Republic, and without any doubt, it was the most amazing thing I've ever seen live.

That's about all the 'fun' we had this semester. The labs and drawing classes totally deprived us of the joys of 'only four theory papers'! Hopefully we'll finally get to take a breath next sem, before we step out into...the world...big, bad or whateer, I don't really kno yet! ;)

I guess I'll sign off for tonight now; gotta finish off all the work for tomorrow. And I promise promise promise I'll post tomorrow bout how everything went :D

I got lucky yet again!! :D

Except for the ones that drop onto my head, I guess I have a pretty good eye for worms and bugs. After all, I spotted this one!

This is what happened to me yesterday..
Sometime during the day, a pilloo (worm) must have jumped onto my hair from some tree or something.
Last night, I was sitting in bed, reading a book and suddenly the worm slid down my hair and onto my shoulder. I thought it must be a big insect and just flicked it. And then I realised it was a worm and that too, had landed on its back on the ground and it was just so yuck!
But that didn't kill my laziness. I finished eating the chocolate I was eating, finished reading the chapter I was reading and only then did I get up to throw that thing outta my room :D

Hello there. Long time again. And no I haven't been lazy. Whoever said final year is cool, my whole week goes in lab records and drawing sheets and weekends go by in the usual boring trips to the city and oh yea lots of just lazing around but not sleeping. So ultimately I still feel sleep-deprived and busy all the time!
So on things that have been up with me, there was our last Ganesh Chaturathi in college last weekend, and it was quite some fun. And oh oh before that was our last Onam too. Damn that was ages ago, now I realise I haven't posted in, well, ages!
And there have been placements. Loads and more.
And awesome weather. Finally the rains are here like first year, the way I like them.
And then there was the student body elections this Sunday, followed by loads of action!
And, I'm a little bored coz of having to spend a hell lot of time just by myself :( Sometimes I wanna get out of here really fast although time does seem to be flying by even faster in final year and hey I just realised, when I get done with this college, there can be no more Confessions@NITC. It's so soon compared to school which took forever to be over, and what am I gonna write about after college! Who'll wanna read about..well, I can't yet imagine what I'm gonna write about after college!

Ahoy folks! I'm back after way more than 30 min though I don't think anyone really missed me here :P
So back to the placement story, as promised..

Anyways I had to recover quickly. There was nothing to lose, as they said. I was almost in a daze and I mostly remember telling them what I didn't know!

Hey hey hey everyone, I know this time I have crossed the limits of laziness and everything else. I have been this lazy! So I gotta fill you in on everything that's been up with me.



Hmm, so I got back to college after a freaking long summer, so long that I didn't even like it anymore!


The placement talk was damn boring and we had to run back at 7 for we still have the curfew :(

And then I had a room to clean and cartons to shift, all by myself. By next morning, my neck pain was back in its full spirit!

Well so that was day one, S7 @ NITC. The major thing that's been up since that day has been 'placements' and I'll write all about it in my next post, which will be up in another half an hour I guess ;)

Hey people!!! LOoooong time, I know. And that's coz...

I have been lazy! Plain and simple!!

It's been a long summer, and like the end of every summer since I got into college, I'm dying to go back and I don't wanna go back!! And if you're from NITC, you had better know what I mean!
Wow, so it is finally final year! Not that it took too long, only three years since it seemed soooo far away.
Man I hated first year like crazy! I hated college and everything else about it!
But maybe the rest of college would not have been the same if first year hadn't been so horrible! And even though it was that horrible, everyone i know wanted to be back for second year by the end of summer. And we have really fond memories from first year we never wanna forget.
Oh I can talk bout memories another time, coz we're talking about the beginning of a new year here; we'll talk about memories next summer. And wow, after a long time, my blogpost sounds anything like 'confessions' :P
So, there's only a week to go. I feel excited. I feel nostalgic. I look forward to it. I miss some things that ain't anymore. I feel nervous, coz we're about to find out what the rest of our lives are gonna be about. I hope this year turns out to be the icing on the cake-the amazing unforgettable life@NITC.
There's still things I don't like about college, but there are other things. Things that make a part of me belong here forever, things that are gonna make memories from these four years last a lifetime.

And hey, I have a new blog. My Dream Journal!

Tired, exhausted, dehydrated yet sweating profusely, hair matted with sweat, he looked up and screamed over the hum of the roaring machine - "1407".
I dropped my (pink barbie princesses) pencil and my lab record and raised my hands in victory, big grin on my face :D And he gave a tired smile.
Thw was our last reading and we had finally conquered Machines Lab, which always looks more like a garage to me!!

And I wondered, am I supposed to feel sad about this getting over?
Coz as far as the trend goes, whenever something comes to an end, people lament and say good things about it, like how much fun and how amazing it was and how much they're gonna miss it, though the world knows how much they hated it when that thing used to be (alive or on, whatever!)

So I was just wondering, what nice thing can I say about this lab?
Did I have a nice time here? Certainly a better time than electronics lab!
And the best part, I never fainted in this lab ;)
Plus we had a really nice water cooler, and I could waste up to ten minutes under the pretext of feeling thirsty. I'm sure others managed more!!

Hmm, I looked behind our table. There were all these huge machines we had never even heard of. I recognized a lathe machine and this weird and huge drilling machine.
Am I curious about them? Am I gonna regret never having to I dunno, getting to look at those big machines?

Naaah! I'm done here. :D
Nothing to miss here. Will be back in a few weeks for the test though, but for now, the 'garage' looks gray and gloomy. Just like a garage!!